Went to bed at 8:30pm; did Dr Joe's Restorative Sleep Meditation. Slept.
Woke or Dreamt I woke around 11pm.
Woke/Dream around 3something a.m.
I did instruct myself that I wanted to meet Lester or my higher/future self in my dreams. To get guidance or love or comfort or reassurance or something. And for me to understand the dream and its meaning(s) during, after, and later into the day.
Dream:
some meditation on happiness; another on gratitude. Remembering, bringing to mind, and feeling all the many incidents and feelings of happiness and in another (linked dream), of gratitude. Somehow filtering each (set of feelings) and condensing them into 2 vials: "Oil of Happiness" and "Oil of Gratitude". All the while, having this huge smile on my face.
Then I was applying that Oil of Happiness to a bite on my belly, and then both oils on my trigger finger.
Did it work?
There is currently no bite on my belly (though I definitely felt the bump at the time) and my trigger finger (left hand, middle finger) does feel smoother!!!
Early Meditative Start
Got out of bed at 4am, wide awake. Still huge smile on face.
Purchased Dr Joe's "Blessing From the Heart - Blessing of the Energy Centers" meditation.
Meditated with it twice.
2nd "Changing Boxes" walking meditation on beach
left for the beach at 6:20am and only returned at 8:20am
Reflections: Beliefs & Doubts
I realised that the doubts I am still battling ... well, maybe I am doing ok after all. Because I realise that I must believe more than I disbelieve. Otherwise I would not be putting in all this time, and effort.
In the almost dozen of years since we arrived to Apollo Bay and in fact, in my whole life, I have not been on the beach 2 mornings in a row. Nor at those early hours!!! Not even after my first diagnosis did I put so much effort and ... well, belief ... into something like this!!!
And a few short months ago, I would not have believed I ever would.
In the last couple of weeks, I have gone for walks (with Pete & Reefer) at least once a day, every day.
I have done daily EFP (Personal Peace Program), Tai Chi, Qi Gong (Lift Chi Up), Small Universe meditations, and at a minimum one Dr Joe's meditaition (though some days it has gone up to 4 or 5!!!).
The other significant change is that, since my 2nd wake up call (after the initial shock and panic), I have lived a life that feels happier and stronger that I can ever remember.
So the 2nd wake up call has really booted me into a different state of being than I have ever had in my life.
And as to whether Dr Joe's work is working ... all I can say, is see above. And hopefully, watch this space for more unexpected surprises!
As to having doubts, ... and fear .. they still pop up. But like I said, I realise the belief is stronger and more than the disbelief.
Also, after the beach walking meditation this morning, I thought of that lady's testimonial on Dr Joe's site. She had stage 4 lung (I think) cancer and it had metastasised to brain, hips, bones, everywhere. She was told she had one month to live. Oh, so brave. So many people are so brave. If I have fears, I can only pretend to imagine what demons she had to fight. Yet she found Dr Joe, she did "the work". And she healed herself.
If she can do that with all that she faced, my "tumour" is just a pip squeak in comparison. Surely it too can disappear like hers did. If her body is capable of so much, the task before me is nothing in comparison. I can do it too.
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Later in the afternoon, I was watching mores testimonials re. Dr Joe's work. There was this guy who regenerated his jaw!!! And then the last sentence he says is:
"Not necessary you have to believe in it -
Just do it."
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