Yesterday afternoon I went for a walk on the beach. It was wondrous and unprecedented on a number of fronts:
- it was my first walk, by myself, in the afternoon in over 10 years (we arrived in Apollo Bay, Jan 2014!)
- I never thought I would motivate myself to go for such a long walk (2 hours)
- I never thought I could ever find myself enjoying such a long walk.
- Just 2 weeks or so ago, I could not even walk up our short driveway without getting short of breath!
- I was listening to the Intro of Dr Joe's "Changing Boxes" walking meditation. Just the Intro. FIVE times!!! Me! I have never been able to listen to any audio text/book that I had listened to before, even if I missed most of the book and couldn't remember the bulk of its contents. And yet I listened to his Intro (!!!) FIVE times, and found something new in it, each time. And Dr Joe is not even my favourite author!! (Sorry, Dr Joe!)
- I wasn't even "doing meditation" when the H-symbol synchronicity happened. And that is what this post is mostly about - because it stunned me into ...Belief?!!!
The Beach
As a preface, just let me say that while obviously, in large part, I believe in Dr Joe's work as evidenced by the (unprecedented) consistency in effort and time and money I have put into it thus far since the first week of Feb 2025 (bought 2 of his books, and then his online POC (Progressive Online Course)), and daily multiple meditations, I was still dealing with remnants of obstrusive doubts.
So after a wee upset with Pete, I found myself, for the first time, in the middle of the day, on the beach. With no idea of how long or where I was going to walk. Or even how long my energy would be available. (I had SOBOE).
A beautiful day, a beautiful beach. Almost devoid of people.
As I mentioned above, I was merely listening to the Intro. Five times in one day!!! (Twice in the early morning where I had yet another unexpected 40min walk at 6am!) Repeatedly listening to the same audio(book) has never been something I could ever do. So - another HUGE change.
The Sign!!!
More or less towards the end part of my walk, I was walking and still listening to Dr Joe's Intro.
And I came across this in the sand.
I paused in front of it and pondered if it had any significance to what Dr Joe was saying and/or to my current challenge and/or to the future me that was represented in my H-symbol.
I waited. And pondered. And I thought, "No. Nothing." And as I started to walk away, I thought in passing, "If it was a H or I came across a H, then THAT would really mean something."
So, with head down, I continued walking slowly along the empty beach, listening as deeply as I could to what Dr Joe was saying. About 2 or maybe 5 mins later, I happened to lift my head, peripherally aware that the one or two other persons on the beach were very far away, and I saw this ...
My brain literally stopped! Who? How? When? Is it possible? How low is the possibility/coincidence of this happening - this exact letter, this huge, with no evident human authorship, and right at this moment, this time, right now?????? And that I had not seen it before, even though I had been walking up and down the beach.
And then as if in answer to this, the audio I was listening to - Dr Joe had just arrived at the point where he was saying how if the work I was doing (stepping into the quantum and finding the possibility of future me) - if it was working, then I should see some thing, some synchronicity, some sign, that would manifest in my reality showing me that I was being answered!
Am I stunned? Yes. Am I totally clear of doubts? No.
But it surely is harder and harder to maintain doubts.
And just as I was pondering this, in some trance-like, wobbly way (me; not Dr Joe), Dr Joe says (on the audio) that I just "have to decide" to believe!!!
Decide to Believe. Decide to Trust
I have done this before! Way back when. In a Silva seminar. It was almost 40 years ago; and it was being led that time by Nigel (can't remember his surname. An Aussie, from WA I think).
There was an opening surrouded by green light. Nigel was at the end of this short tunnel. And I told myself to just be open, trust, believe. And each time I "saw" the doubts rising and trying to enter or block the passage (between me and what Nigel was saying), I politely told each doubt, "Thank you. No, not right now." and immediately re-focussed on accepting whatever Nigel was telling us. Because I had told the doubts (or whichever part of me that was trying to protect me with doubts) that we could always entertain any doubts it had later; just not right now. Later. Not now.
And I believed that worked. And has survived 40 years later to help me out now? I will give this a go again.
~ Martha Beck on "How to Tell When the Universe Is Sending You Signs"
