Today is Fri, 21 Feb 2025.
Yesterday, Thu 20 Feb 2025, I received the Long Distance Coherence Healing online.
The night before that, Wed 19 Feb 2025, I did my first Walk for the World (WW) meditation. (On my own.)
Both were surprising, amazing, unexpected.
Walk for the World meditation
Walk for the World meditation is a free meditation provided by Dr Joe Dispenza.
I only "walked" around the space behind my studio. (Banksia Ct) There wasn't a lot of space for walking ... so my body moved a lot and it flowed and it danced a lot!!! I say "my body" because I felt it moved more on its own than by my mental instruction!! Also, I did it at night, so trying to really walk and likely stumble was not a viable option.
One of the (many) features of my first "walking" meditation was the overcoming of fear; the exercise of which I am finding out, is proving to be an ongoing useful memory and strength. It is the memory of "overcoming" that continues to motivate and fuel this "letting go muscle"; letting go - be it of fear, or distraction, or doubts. And, for me, it is a muscle that needs to be continually loved and built up for the future I want.
My first "walk" as I said was at night. The wind was gentle but cool and varying. There was a long alley of dark trees which was a tat scary. Even more so when the eyes were closed and the imagination slipped into fearful and rampant imaginings. However, being urged to trust, to be brave, to visualise Light and safety was a very good exercise to let go of rampant fearful imaginings, and to remain strong and safe in the present moment.
Another unexpected feature during the meditation was that a few times, I found myself, eyes closed, with arms fully outstretched ...as if I was linking to other outstretched hands. And we formed an unbroken link. All round the world. Circle-rings that overlapped with and over each other till we covered the entire world in linked circles of love.
That imagining of my hands, stretched out in the dark, linked with unknown hands, was initially scary (like from some Stephen King movie or something!!!) And hence, the exercise of letting fear go and staying on course and in the moment helped. A lot.
Another result: I was dancing and moving, almost by the body's own volition. And I was bare footed. It seems to me (then but I didn't pause to consider then) that I am getting more sensation and feeling back in my toes (which were affected in 2015: CIPN - Chemotherapy Induced Peripheral Neuropathy). CIPN I gather from the various doctors is not a condition that can be healed or reversed though it may get worse. Well, my toes and feet are starting to feel more alive than they have since 2015!
LOVE! During the WW "walk" ... I felt more love for the child that I was than I have ever been able to. (In the past, I have mainly been repulsed by her.) Not only more love for the me that I was, but ONLY love and admiration and appreciation. I could even completely and totally open my arms and comfort her in love and admiration. And not only the child in me... but, to my immense surprise, all the people who I felt had given me grief ... and not only that, I felt as if I had enough love to embrace and give love to the WHOLE WORLD!!! Even Trump!!! 😂 Now, that is something I thought I would never have been capable of, not even for a second!!! At the time of this writing, I still feel none of the burning darkness I felt for him previously!!!
Oh and that child that I was ... the one who lived in fear because she would not stop accompanying her grandma to her room at night and staying to say a prayer together .... and had to face the intense hatred and anger from her mother as soon as she returned to the TV/Living room ... every night ....that child that eventually chose to end her life multiple times because the love she felt she needed from her mother was never given; but instead would only get pain and insult; the pain of which felt unbearable and inescapable ... that child seem to come through during the WW "walk" ... alive and whole ... rejoicing, "I am Alive!!!! I am Alive!!!! I am Alive!!!!" ... and thanking the adult me for taking the brunt of all the blows and scars and pain and suffering so that she, with her integrity and honour intact, could emerge now, whole and free and ALIVE!!! That we are Alive and Whole now.
Online Coherence Healing (free)
I didn't expect to find the miracle of long distance coherence healing on Dr Joe's website. And even more, that it was offered Free! (Especially when I think of my last one in 2015, from a paid provider)*. And that there was one for and from within Australia! I can only say to Dr Joe and the wonderful healers who do this for free and with so much intention and love, "Thank you so so so very much". I am so grateful.
And another synchronicity / miracle is the timing. For me.
Almost all of the available sessions were fully booked ... for months ahead. Right now, I was going through a medical hiccup (recurrence of cancer, they tell me). I was right in the middle of it: reeling from the shock of the news and diagnosis, and trying to decide what to do next.
So,
- by "coincidence", finally finding a small click to Dr Joe's youtube videos (even though I have been aware of him and even heard snippets of his interviews and talks for years, there was never a "click").
- by "coincidence", just having received some monies (thank you Mommy, even though you are gone now for over six years, you are still helping us out) that allowed me to do a Dr Joe online course: Progressive Online Course (POC)
- The POC alone was useful in more ways than I realize now, and it caused me to search for more "goodies" on Dr Joe's site and that is where I found both the free WW meditation and the offering of free online coherence healing.
- And even though it is not necessary, I felt that the POC helped me to be in a better state of receiving during the Coherence Healing than I would have been otherwise. And "coincidentally" I finished the POC before the Coherence Healing. The online Coherence Healing was based on availability "outside" of my control. In fact, that Coherence Healing was the last available space they had for months ahead. And its timing was "coincidentally" perfect:
[1] to follow on within days of me finishing the online POC course, and
[2] that the Coherence Healing happened before my next meeting (25/2/25) with Dr Rosie McBain - consultant and gynae oncologist surgeon with PeterMac.
❤️😍❤️ It almost seems as if I am divinely guided. ❤️😍❤️
The Coherence Healing was yesterday. It was via a private Zoom link. I had it in our bedroom and it turned out to be the right choice.
After the intro and welcome by one of the hosts, Dr Joe actually came on live!!! (Or at least I think that is what the host/co-host said.) That was unexpected. I don't know if he does that for all the online Coherence Healing. I can only imagine not because by what I can see of the bookings online, there are so many!!! And his live talk was not a brief one. But was actually quite long .. leading us in preparation and meditation.
Then there were 18 (!!!!!) healers. People, strangers, here in Australia, who are willing to give up their time and energy to help other strangers and extend coherence healing. The entire session was 80-90minutes!!! Not a quickie.
Maybe one day I can be a healer too.
There were 4 of us healees.
The Coherence Healing, ... that in itself was an experience to be SO GRATEFUL for. To ALL of them.
2 Mar 2025. Addition:
Since writing the above and the Coherence Healing, I have told my oncologists that for the next three months, I do not want any treatment. (They recommended surgery and follow-up chemo.) The Coherence Healing was on 20th Feb, 2025. The appointment with the oncologist when I informed them was on the 25th Feb.
It doesn't seem much when I write this down. And it wasn't by any means a flippant decision but one that took days and nights, prayers and meditation. And I was scared. It is scary to say no to your doctors. It is scary to say no to conventional medical routes when people and loved ones all around you don't understand nor agree. But for deeper reasons than I could articulate to anyone at the time, I felt it was the route that was best for me.
Just after the Coherence Healing and while I was still seeking a more definitive answer on what to decide, I came across another of Dr Joe's (youTube) interviews. Perhaps I have heard it before but this time, his words jumped out at me. He was talking about how he decided not to undergo the radical surgeries after his accident (1987?), how it was virtually unheard of then that anyone would dare say "no" to the medical wisdom of the day, and how he decided to "roll the dice" and went on his way.
I am not saying that Dr Joe caused me to make my non-surgical and non-chemo decision. Not that alone. But it was the timing and the words and "coincidence" I was looking for that day.
I believe they all helped in my decision: the POC, the other mediations I was doing, Dr Joe, the Coherence Healing, the immensity of the gratitude I felt. (I was virtually in tears throughout the Coherence Healing.)
Now in the space of three months I have gained for myself and my healing, I do encounter moments of bodily pains and invasive doubts as to the saneness of my decision. I will continue Dr Joe's POC again and his meditations and the QiCong and Tai Chi I have started and I will not give up.
Footnote
* The previous online, long distance healing was my first. That was in 2015, shortly after I was first diagnosed. That was with Chunyi Lin. Cost me over USD200. And it was such a bad experience ... from trying and trying to book, to the few minutes uncomfortable (silent) session, to the aftermath where a report was promised but had to be chased up again and again. And then when they finally sent me the promised report, it was a cut and paste affair. Considering who Chunyi Lin is and what he has become, that experience was such a dismal performance by that QiCong master.
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