Too Perfect. Too Tired.

Too Perfect. Too Tired.

I have come this route before but I still seem to be stuck in the same rut: trying to be too perfect.

By that I mean, when I want to do something, I can't seem just to do it. No. It has to be the "right" time. And/or when I have gotten all the materials I need or done all the research I can or ... Consequently lots of things don't get done. But new ones still come along, waiting to be done as well.

And to add to the woe, all those undone things, they start to feel mightly heavy. "So many things to do". Just saying that makes me tired.

And of course, often I AM too tired to even start on something because the mind races ahead and thinks of all the many many steps that have to be taken to do that one thing. And I am exhausted before I begin.

Sigh. I think I should just go to be now.